I really wanna make a new account and start anew since this account is pretty much dead.. even if I submit things. It's like that one person you're subscribed to on youtube, but never watch their videos. But I hardly give myself time for this place. I have time for it, but I'm not active enough. I miss my DA friends and the conversations we've had. I miss inspiring people and getting advice on how to improve my artwork. I miss enjoying other people's work, and sadly I don't so much anymore. I admire art, but I don't seem to enjoy DA anymore. I want to, very much, but idk what my deal is.
People still favorite things in my gallery, but no one pays attention to the work that has meaning. I guess you could say I miss the attention and the fact that people loved my art work. I loved that people asked me for requests. It kinda made me feel professional. But now when people ask me for requests I feel bad because I have to refuse. I know a while ago I said I had my art mojo back, but I guess it was just a little fling.
I guess I'm gonna have to accept the fact that drawing is a past thing for me. I'm a new me, and I don't think this addition comes with the desire to be artistic. I don't want to deactivate my account because that would mean all of my hard work would disappear. But I don't want do stop coming here all together, either. I feel if I made a new account and got new watchers of different styles, I would have more motivation to be active. Not even with drawing, more with writing and photography, but I don't even do much of those. I don't even know how many people are going to read this. All of the people I used to be friends with on here.. I guess it's mainly my fault for not being active enough. I also did kinda blow it for never finishing requests for some people.. let alone point commissions and had to give them their points back.
I guess I'll stop right there. I believe I gave you guys enough to read. You get the point.